Who Am I Really?

Who Am I Really?

Jai Life, Love, Uncategorized

Have you ever asked yourself that question? Have you ever wondered, “Who the hell am I?” I have. And the follow-up question then became, “Who do I want to become?”

Over the past few years, I have learned something about me – Jai: I am never content with the status quo. I always reach for more. I always plan for five years down the road. I make decisions now based on how I want to live in the future. Most of the times, I have a plan. That plan is detailed with step-by-step instructions on how to carry out such plan. I mean I still rely on my notebook regardless of how many handy dandy electronic calendar and note taking software is available! Evernote who?? No, I am a writer! I love to grab my journal and blue ink pen, a cup of coffee and a quiet corner. And I plan my little heart out.

When I don’t have a vision or plan, I am unrest. I know, I know… you might say everything does not have to be that serious. And perhaps you are right. But I am who I am. This is what makes me-me. I have my own voice. I have my own writing style. I have my own being. It took years to develop my voice and I am loving it (snapping my fingers and a little neck roll)!

So who am I really? Well it depends on which hat I am wearing. I behave according to the hat. I am a mother. I am a daughter. I am a sister. I am a friend. I am a lover. I am an author. I am a blogger. I am a business owner. I am a leader. And, just recently I discovered my true purpose: I am a moderator of dialogue. I orchestrate the meeting of the experience with the voice, while nursing its remnants. #what

If you are lost, that is OK. I am simply talking about my two businesses: Matters of My Heart (experience) and Jai the Author (voice). My businesses speak to who I am at the core – led by my heart. I always strive to be a better person. And if you read my blog from last night, you may remember that I am building a legacy so that when I am gone, people would remember me as the woman with a huge heart (and not the bitter bitch who broke many hearts).

So again, I ask… who am I really? I am a working progress. Not a work IN progress. But rather a working progress. And I am OK with that! #boom


Joanne November 21, 2015 at 11:58 pm

Love this! I ask every day. More than once a day. I love that it changes that often. Though there is a core me, I let the rest dance around it. I love love love ‘moderator of dialogue, orchestrating the meeting of experience with the voice”. Yes! Thank you. Hard few hours fighting with computer issues tonight. First world problems as I see it, and yet, I want the writer to live now, so I watched her frustration. Got an entry in for the discipleship. Will let the artist sleep and start again tomorrow. We get to meet ourselves again each day.
Thanks for the inspiration and dose of ‘woman power’ 🙂


    Jai November 22, 2015 at 6:22 am

    I love that we get to meet ourselves again everyday! Which means if I made a mistake the day before and I am blessed to see another day, there’s my chance to change course. The beauty of always evolving!


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