Have you ever asked yourself that question? Have you ever wondered, “Who the hell am I?” I have. And the follow-up question then became, “Who do I want to become?”
Over the past few years, I have learned something about me – Jai: I am never content with the status quo. I always reach for more. I always plan for five years down the road. I make decisions now based on how I want to live in the future. Most of the times, I have a plan. That plan is detailed with step-by-step instructions on how to carry out such plan. I mean I still rely on my notebook regardless of how many handy dandy electronic calendar and note taking software is available! Evernote who?? No, I am a writer! I love to grab my journal and blue ink pen, a cup of coffee and a quiet corner. And I plan my little heart out.
When I don’t have a vision or plan, I am unrest. I know, I know… you might say everything does not have to be that serious. And perhaps you are right. But I am who I am. This is what makes me-me. I have my own voice. I have my own writing style. I have my own being. It took years to develop my voice and I am loving it (snapping my fingers and a little neck roll)!
So who am I really? Well it depends on which hat I am wearing. I behave according to the hat. I am a mother. I am a daughter. I am a sister. I am a friend. I am a lover. I am an author. I am a blogger. I am a business owner. I am a leader. And, just recently I discovered my true purpose: I am a moderator of dialogue. I orchestrate the meeting of the experience with the voice, while nursing its remnants. #what
If you are lost, that is OK. I am simply talking about my two businesses: Matters of My Heart (experience) and Jai the Author (voice). My businesses speak to who I am at the core – led by my heart. I always strive to be a better person. And if you read my blog from last night, you may remember that I am building a legacy so that when I am gone, people would remember me as the woman with a huge heart (and not the bitter bitch who broke many hearts).
So again, I ask… who am I really? I am a working progress. Not a work IN progress. But rather a working progress. And I am OK with that! #boom