I know when you first hear the word “love” you reference a relationship between two partners. You reference a strong connection between a man and a woman; or a woman and woman; or a man and man. You reference “love” with emotion, with relationship. Yes, I am saying relationship again. Follow me… walk with me.
And since the title of this blog is “He” loved on me, you probably opened this link to find out who is the “He” that I’m talking about. I’ll go as far as to say that if you are my family or friend, you automatically assumed that I am finally coming out and spilling all the juicy on my relationship with my ex-husband!
If that’s what you thought, then NO… this blog is NOT about me and my relationship with a man. Well, not just any man.
I am talking about my relationship with God. And how that relationship has flourished from unbelief to unimaginable, mind blowing, unapologetic faith.
Can we agree for a moment that faith is hard? To remain unwavering. To remain steadfast. To remain constant. Faith is hard! Can we agree?
Can we agree that sometimes it’s not easy to believe? Can we agree that sometimes we yearn for a Word from God? Just to know that we are on the right track? That we are on the right path? That He’s going to do as He promised for us? Can we agree that faith is hard?
Can we agree that some days while going through a storm, we feel strong and confident in our belief because we know God? Then other days as the storm wears on us, we get weary and our faith ground becomes shaky? Can we agree?
Mark 9:24 says, “And straightway the father of the child cried out, and said with tears, Lord, I believe; help thou mine unbelief.”
Can I get a witness?
Sometimes my heart knows and believes in God, but my mind creates unbelief! And truth be told, it’s a constant battle to align my thoughts with my faith!!!
Have you ever felt so good and so sure that God has called you to do a great work? And you begin to move in your purpose and feeling good (take note that I keep talking about “feeling”). You see results. You see people being changed right before your eyes. And that gives proof that you’re doing well. So you work tirelessly building and creating and connecting with others. You’re faithful to showing up everyday. You’re faithful to delivering the message. You’re faithful to meditating, praying, going to church, reading God’s Word, sharing God’s Word, visiting the sick and shut in… whatever you believe what you should do to stay in good with God. You fill in the blank here. You’re faithful to that.
But then, when you’re all alone. When no one is around to see you. When no one is around to question you and your calling. There’s those damn thoughts again; and you begin to question yourself. You begin to question your calling, your purpose. You begin to get weary. Things aren’t moving as quickly as you want them to; you see some results but those results aren’t big enough or good enough for you. So you begin to doubt if this is your purpose after all.
Might I suggest another scripture for your eating? Yes, I want you to eat this Word, swallow and consume it.Hebrews 11:1 says, “Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not… Click To Tweet
Might I also suggest that sometimes we have to see it, before we see it, or we will never see it?
All throughout the Bible and all around us we see faith in works. But when we fail to look with the right eyes, we hallucinate. We see things that are not there because we are not looking through the right lens.
II Corinthians 4:18 says, “While we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen: for the things which are seen are temporal; but the things which are not seen are eternal.”
Yeah, I know I lost a lot of you so let me share with you the Message version of that same passage of scripture: (verses 16-18) “So we’re not giving up. How could we! Even though on the outside it often looks like things are falling apart on us, on the inside, where God is making new life, not a day goes by without his unfolding grace. These hard times are small potatoes compared to the coming good times, the lavish celebration prepared for us. There’s far more here than meets the eye. The things we see now are here today, gone tomorrow. But the things we can’t see now will last forever.”
Now, I said all of that to get to my point of this entire blog. Even in our unbelief, God still loves us. He understands that we can get caught up in the natural realm of things because by nature we have sight and we tend to believe things we see. So to ask us to believe in things we cannot see with our natural sight is challenging. He knows that.
But like any good mentor, any good guide, any good instructor, God is patient with us. Click To Tweet He encourages us along the way. He builds a relationship with us. He builds trust with us. He sends us sparks of good feelings (appeasing the flesh) while equipping us for the real battle (in the spirit). He pushes us to be great by first showing us that we are capable of being great. That we can do all things through Him as He strengthens us. All of these things He does for us means just one message that He has been doing since the beginning of time. The true reason why He created us in the first place. Simply to love on us.Yep, you were created… I was created just so God could love on us. Click To Tweet
That is all. I’m going to leave that right there and let it marinate.
Founder of Matters of My Heart
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