This morning, as soon as I opened my eyes, I reached for my iPhone to check emails and social media sites, as I do every morning before I get out of my bed. I read an email that had very disappointing news. The very first email! My heart was so sad, but it only took a few seconds for the thought that it was not God’s will at this time to penetrate my mind. Though I accepted God’s will in my head, it had not yet made it to my heart; so I was still disappointed, which is a feeling – and feelings are unreliable. That was the start of my day.
So I get out of bed “feeling” like my day just started out in a not-so-good way and I just wasn’t in the mood for anything else. Mind you, my head knew God intervened but it hadn’t penetrated my heart yet. I was still caught up in the feelings of it all. Get to the office and find out a big mistake my staff made with the client!!! Dag nabbit!! My day is just getting blown and it’s not even Noon. So I buckle down, go to the client with my tail between my legs, accept full responsibility for the mishap, apologize profusely and made accommodations towards resolution. Problem solved, but I’m still “feeling” like crap.
Then I have a moment of reminisce. A conversation I had yesterday with a good friend. You see, yesterday, HE was having one of those days and at the beginning of our conversation he said to me, “Things are crazy, but I just asked God to cradle me through it.” WOW!!! Cradle me THROUGH it. Not take it away. Not get me out of it. But cradle me THROUGH it. Those words pierced my soul when he said it (and I remember telling him how powerful those words were) … little did he know that I would need to say the same exact thing less than 24 hours later. Those words became my affirmation for the remainder of the day. Lord, I know I am being attacked by feelings of disappointment and anger of today’s events so far, but I ask You to please cradle me through it. The peace that took over me at that moment is indescribable.
I’m such a visionary so when I think about being cradled by God, and this is how I explained it somewhat to my dear friend, I see myself in a bubble. On the outside of the bubble are things that are trying to attack me, but they can’t penetrate the bubble to get to me. Those things can be doubt, sadness, egos, other personalities, disappointment, fear, loneliness, anxiety, depression, distractions, hopelessness, etc. Anything and anyone that tries to deter me from moving in my God-designed purpose. Whatever feeling or thing that causes us to doubt the love God has for us. (That’s usually the first thought when something bad happens is God doesn’t love us.)
And the bubble that is protecting us; the bubble that is blocking all of those feelings and things from reaching us … that’s nothing but the Blood of Jesus. I am constantly reminded by God’s Word, “He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.” Psalm 91:1 (King James Version). And that “secret” place is only known to me and my Lord. It’s our special place. No one knows where it is and no one can get there. It’s me and Him. It’s our secret place. He meets me there every single time. EVERY TIME. Now I need to have a praise break right now. Excuse me.
(few minutes later) Ok I’m back. 🙂 It may take me some time to get to our secret place because I’m human. I get caught up in my feelings. I know feelings are unreliable and the only thing I can rely on is facts (i.e. God’s Word). But I still have to process those feelings. So it takes me a minute to get to that secret place; but when I get there, there God is! He’s always there.
So the rest of the day was just as bad and sucky as the beginning; but through it all, God gave me a word. And He met me in our secret place. And He cradled me through it. Turns out, the ending justified the means! The disappointing news I received this morning turned out to be a blessing and now I understand WHY it was not in God’s will. And out of the craziness came this post. I may not be the smartest of them all (and I am smart). I may not be the prettiest of them all (and I am gorgeous, don’t get it twisted). I may not have thousands of dollars in the bank (yeah, no I don’t have that). But this one thing I do know, when I become Kingdom-Minded and I beseech my Lord in our secret place, He blocks every living organism that is no good to my progress or to my destiny! Now I can say that He cradled me through today; and He will cradle me any other day from now on. All I have to do is just “Ask”.
A special thanks to my dear friend for speaking those words of power and conviction into my soul yesterday that carried us both through yesterday AND today!